The Journal of a Spiritual Seeker, A Process of Transformation, Trust and Growth
Hello Seekers,
As I sat down today, I felt all sorts of resistance and wondered what I would find in these pages from three years ago. Would I be embarrassed by what I was learning, or what I wrote, or what the Light shared at that time? My resistance can be pretty insidious at times, and the things I say to myself through that resistance can be quite cruel.
I’m happy to report that not only am I not embarrassed, this message was as important to me today as it was back then. I needed to be reminded that transformation is taking place, that I need to trust my soul and my own inner guidance, and that growth happens by putting in the work. It’s silly, in hindsight, to think I would have been embarrassed, for this whole process is one of transformation, trust and growth, and as such is perfectly and exactly what it needs to be at any given time.
The root underneath my fear today of opening the Journal and reading over what it said was my own resistance. Everything inside me was pushing against doing the work to get this out, for reasons that still feel compelling, even as I’m in the process of understanding them more and more all the time. Pushing through my resistance has continued to move so much healing energy — just as continuing to practice, as the Light encouraged me three years ago, brought about so much healing and growth at that time.
So this note today is a gentle encouragement to do the things you know are right because you feel their truth on a soul level. Let go of the fear and push through the resistance. I hope these words from the Light help you bring about all the positive growth and change you’re seeking.
Lots of love,
Jodie
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Q and A with the Light, Nov. 6, 2017
Me: Is there anything I need to know about energetic imbalances or karmic charges before these can be balanced and neutralized?
The Light: Only that you are doing the work necessary to bring about this balance and neutrality.
This shift that is taking place is essential to your growth and wellbeing. You feel the molecules changing, and in so doing, they are changing the space around you, as well.
This process is a transformation, much like the butterfly — you will no longer be what you once were.
Do not be afraid of this, for it is a wonderful thing. The expansiveness you are now moving into will be a place of great joy and wonder. The promise of this can keep you from worrying too much over what you are leaving behind — pain, fear, insecurity, uncertainty. These are some of the misunderstandings you are currently shedding. In so doing, you are abandoning lower frequencies and moving into higher frequencies of truth and understanding.
Do not be afraid of what you are leaving behind — through it feels like a comfort to you, it has in fact been a place of great pain and discomfort. This illusion of security has kept you and others locked in a prison of cyclical misunderstanding.
Open to the truth, open to the Light, open to expansion moving ever more into a cosmic space of light and love and understanding.
Me: I ran into some serious self-doubt when trying to tune in about a specific past life. Where is this self doubt rooted?
In your mind. You must still work to remove the constrictive aspects of your mind, for it is getting in the way of your flow.
Me: How do I do that?
Continue to pay attention. Continue to grow and learn and evolve and clear energies and balance and neutralize. Continue to shift your makeup so that you are more balanced and in better alignment energetically. Allow the process to continue and allow yourself to evolve.
Do not cast judgement on yourself that you are not growing quickly enough or well enough, even. Just allow the growth to happen and be grateful for the progress made.
Continue to open your mind.
You believe the information you are receiving, so that is not the issue. You doubt your own ability to receive it, particularly when it pertains to yourself. This is harmful to your soul, to be doubted in this way. Especially as you are calling it forth. Trust your soul. Trust your gauge on what is your soul and the Light and what is your mind and the lower frequencies of its influence.
Keep practicing.
When you received the information about the past life, you felt it. When you began to see images, you felt their truth as memory. But you pulled back from that, concerned you were inventing it through the power of your mind and imagination. You do not require the outside affirmation any longer. You have the energetic mechanism in place to read the frequencies and know which are higher and which are lower.
Keep practicing, this will become second nature, this gauge will operate constantly in the background as you continue to stay open to the flow.
Me: Thank you.
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Exercise: Begin each exercise by grounding and protecting. For more information on how, see this post.
Visualize yourself as a caterpillar building a chrysalis. Create for yourself the space you need to safely transform from what you are now to what you are becoming. If you feel called, allow the visualization to continue and expand to show you exactly what you are becoming.
Another exercise: Throughout the next week, make a conscious effort to pay attention to the frequencies around you. What resonates as truth? How do you feel it? Do you experience any physical sensations when you perceive something as truth? When you experience something really uplifting, how does that feel? When you experience something that really brings you down, how does that feel? Are there any interactions with others you find particularly exhausting? Any you find really enlivening? As you begin to pay attention, keep notes if it helps on what you are noticing about these different frequencies. This exercise in awareness has been extremely useful for me as I’ve learned to recognize the vibrations of things, and began to pay attention to the energy that flows through everything.
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A brief note: This journal and its exercises are simply a means to help you find your own flow. There is no pressure to follow them exactly or read each and every one. It does not need to be read in order either, so if you miss one, don’t feel like you’ve failed or fallen behind. These messages are here to hold space for you as you discover and evolve within your spiritual practice.
This is the first volume of The Journal of the Spiritual Seeker, and I’m presenting it here on The Devic Connection website, serialized over the last 10 weeks of 2020, with weekly roundups via email (you can sign up in the box at the bottom of this page if you’d like to receive these.) If you’ve just arrived here and would like to start from the beginning, here’s the link to the first post.
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We all need help with clarity …
Sometimes, things come up in the healing journey that we can’t quite manage by ourselves. I’m fortunate to have people I can call on to help me gain that clarity. And I’m also in therapy, which helps immensely with processing the psychological and mental health issues. If you find yourself getting stuck on this journey or having something come up that you need some guidance on, please do seek help. An internet search can help you find a qualified mental health practitioner for those psychological issues. And if you’re looking for help from the Light on the spiritual questions, I have some availability for readings. (Read more about that here.)