The Journal of a Spiritual Seeker, Unwinding the Energies of a Reaction
Hello Seekers,
I feel really proud of myself for the work I did during the months of these journal entries because it wasn’t easy at all, but there has been so much healing in the years since that came directly out of the commitment to growth I made at that time. My interpersonal relationships have changed pretty drastically as I took the time to explore every aspect of how I relate to the world around me. Most of these relationships have survived, and are more balanced and healthier as a result.
This examination process is ongoing, though, and I’ve by no means mastered the skills of communication. I wonder if anyone really has? It seems like our interpersonal relationships — especially with the people closest to us — are an always expanding source of information that we can use to grow and evolve spiritually. It hurts sometimes, and other people can get hurt in the process too. Our emotions are a part of how we learn if , instead of staying stuck in our emotional responses, we can use them as indicators that there is something needing closer examination underneath.
This post was my attempt do go into that closer examination. At the time, I was unwinding a lot of energies around a collection of past lives where I tried to help and did more harm instead. There is a part of me that wants to save people from pain and sorrow and hardship — a tendency that can lend itself very easily to people pleasing and codependency. Through the last few years, the Light has consistently reminded me that trying to save people from their own experiences is not my job, and in fact it does more harm than good. My most painful experiences have taught me a lot about everything, and that opportunity is true for other people as well. By interfering with their process, I’m not allowing them the space to have their own experience and learn what they will from that experience.
Another avenue to explore here for those who have an empathic nature is whether we’re trying to prevent people from having their natural emotional responses because we don’t want to feel the discomfort they’re experiencing. So we run around trying to solve all the emotions of the world, instead of allowing space for those emotions and becoming more aware of our own energetic boundaries.
I hope these lessons that I have by no means mastered can help you take steps to examine the energies under your own emotional reactions. I’ll be holding space here as you do …
With love,
Jodie
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Q and A with the Light, Nov. 13, 2017 (Part 2)
Me: I hurt someone I love and I didn’t mean to.
The Light: There are a lot of energies swirling around in this.
Me: Ok, one at a time: what are these energies?
Energies of fear. This comes from lifetimes of self-doubt and a reluctance to live authentically because you were afraid of doing the wrong thing.
You have to understand there is a neutrality to all things, and that bringing about great change is necessary. And part of that is upheaval. Drop fear of this. Allow yourself to move into this space of neutrality where you are working in union with the Light to bring about this necessary change. When your actions are coming from this place of Light, there is no right and wrong. Only what is needed in the moment.
Me: The next energy?
Outside influences have played a part in the choices you’ve made, both in this lifetime and in others. You are moving beyond this now into a place of pure authenticity with your soul light where your inner guidance is the only influence you will require. This space is there for you now, it’s just a matter of dropping your resistance and fear. Transmute these energies AS they occur. Don’t attach to them, just be mindful of them and allow the Light to transmute them. Return always to a place of neutrality.
Me: Next energy?
There is a reluctance here, which is similar to but not the same as typical resistance. It is an unwillingness to step forward into an uncomfortable way of being. Be who you are now. Allow the lessons of the past to be integrated into your very being.
Me: Have I been reluctant like this in past cycles?
Yes, because of a fear of interfering and making things worse than they were before.
There have been several lifetimes where you made things worse — or so you perceived it — by taking action you thought was right at the time. But you need to release this, because those actions brought about chains of reactions that influenced the way others evolved, for their own growth at that time. You cannot save people — so stop trying. This has been a repetition in past cycles as well, and you are getting better at recognizing it. When you try to save people, you remove their autonomy. Their freewill is sacred, and necessary for their own growth. People need to be allowed the space to have their own experiences. These are the ways their souls have chosen to learn what they need to know in this life.
You are fixated on the past today, on what you might’ve done wrong or what you might have done (in past lives) that would offend your sensibilities in this life. There is plenty there, but it is not your job to judge the yous who have come before, or the choices they made, either. Your job is to evolve beyond those choices, held up by the lessons your soul learned in the process. Allow the knowledge and memories to come forth so that you can utilize the lessons to their fullest. With the understanding brought through these other experiences, you can really change tides in terms of the energy of this planet right now. Dismiss your discomfort — like other energies, it served its purpose in helping you become more discerning and ethical. You’ve developed those skills, and a connection to your soul that allows these functions to occur on the highest frequencies of Light. So allow these functions free rein to operate and allow yourself to release and transmute lower frequencies from lifetimes past. As you do, the light of the lessons will be allowed to integrate into your everyday functions, deepening your ability while allowing all else to fall away.
You have done “bad” things, yes. But you have done very many “good” things as well. Allow both to come to a place of neutrality within you, for without both, you wouldn’t be where you are today — at a crossroads where you can become an influential force of Light in this place and time.
Healing these energies now allows them to heal then, because time is not linear. So make amends, now and then, and move forward through these lower frequencies into higher frequencies. Guilt and judgment are not neutral, and serve no purpose in this place in this way. Allow them to fall away.
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Exercise: Begin each exercise by grounding and protecting. For more information on how, see this post.
Give yourself space and time to sit with your feelings. What are you experiencing today that is difficult or challenging? What emotions are coming out of the experience? Be sure to check in with your grounding as you do this, and stay grounded through the process. It’s important to feel the emotions without being carried away by them, and the answer to this is to stay grounded. What energies can you discover under the emotions? As you examine the energies, can you allow the emotions to move? As they move, can you allow them to release and transmute?
If you’d like to go deeper into what you’re learning through and with a relationship in your life, give yourself time and space to sit with your feelings about this other person. Stay grounded as you look at the energetic patterns underneath these emotions, and examine what they can show you about yourself. Extend that compassion to the person you’re thinking of and visualize yourself giving them space to experience their emotions around the situation. Detach from their emotional response. Don’t judge it or attach to it at all. Visualize yourself and that other person in separate bubbles of golden white light, floating away from each other so that those bubbles don’t overlap at all.
You can also call on Arch Angel Michael to cut any and all cords on every level, dimension, plane, existence, in all lifetimes and timelines. And then ask Arch Angels Uriel, Gabriel and Rafael to fill in with golden white and rose-colored light any and all places and spaces that held those cords — on every level, dimension, plane, existence, in all lifetimes and timelines. Cutting cords does not sever connections that are shared through Light and Love, so don’t be afraid to cut cords with people you still want in your life. It will just ensure a balanced flow of energy between you.
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A brief note: This journal and its exercises are simply a means to help you find your own flow. There is no pressure to follow them exactly or read each and every one. It does not need to be read in order either, so if you miss one, don’t feel like you’ve failed or fallen behind. These messages are here to hold space for you as you discover and evolve within your spiritual practice.
This is the first volume of The Journal of the Spiritual Seeker, and I’m presenting it here on The Devic Connection website, serialized over the last 10 weeks of 2020, with weekly roundups via email (you can sign up in the box at the bottom of this page if you’d like to receive these.) If you’ve just arrived here and would like to start from the beginning, here’s the link to the first post.
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We all need help with clarity …
Sometimes, things come up in the healing journey that we can’t quite manage by ourselves. I’m fortunate to have people I can call on to help me gain that clarity. And I’m also in therapy, which helps immensely with processing the psychological and mental health issues. If you find yourself getting stuck on this journey or having something come up that you need some guidance on, please do seek help. An internet search can help you find a qualified mental health practitioner for those psychological issues. And if you’re looking for help from the Light on the spiritual questions, I have some availability for readings. (Read more about that here.)