The Journal of a Spiritual Seeker, Stepping Forward into the Unknown
Hello Seekers,
Resistance, the old frenemy, has come to visit again in today’s message. I started to type “nemesis,” but that feels a bit too negative. I don’t actually think resistance — as frustrating as it can be — is altogether bad. There is a lot we can learn if we’re willing to look into what it is we’re resisting, and why.
This is the ninth week of these posts, I’ve got a good start putting them together for a print version, and even still I felt resistance creep in on me this morning. I asked, “what is it showing me?” and heard, “That there are layers upon layers of work to be done always.” So we go on and in and through and forward.
What are we moving onto and into? Ahramein says here that it is the unknown. But our souls are the way finders, and they have a lot broader and wider and vaster perspective. When we communicate with ourselves on a soul level, that broader perspective can lead to a lot of new understandings.
Today’s message continues to chronicle the evolution of my own understanding of how we’re meant to relate to those we love in more balanced and unconditional ways. My soul has been in the process this whole life of showing me the space I’m meant to hold independent from others, and it has not been an easy lesson.
If you identify as an empath or a highly-sensitive person, you may have noticed yourself having a hard time allowing other people to have feelings. This has been extremely difficult for me, because when I feel that someone is in pain or is experiencing something unpleasant, I want to make them feel better so that I can feel better too. It’s not all self-serving — I’m sure I also want them to feel better because I love them, but there is some element of wanting all the energy around me to be calm and flowing along smoothly. Allowing people space to have unpleasant feelings — even about me — is still uncomfortable, but I’m getting better at it. The key has been to become as honest with myself about my own needs, where I am on my own path, and what we’re all in the process of learning. And then to take a deep breath and watch how the energies interact with my own, and where my thoughts and feelings go from there. Continuously grounding and staying in my own truths, continuing to look more deeply into those truths, and seeking to increase transparency with myself has been essential.
And then being sure not to beat myself up for the many ways I am not, haven’t been and will never be perfect.
I hope wherever this finds you, you are surrounding yourself with love and light,
Jodie
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Q and A with Ahramein, Dec. 11, 2017:
Me: Why am I still experiencing resistance?
My dear, you are experiencing the shifting of dimensions and a journey into the unknown. This resistance is natural for your kind. You humans like certainty and the comfort of what you know. This process is asking you to drop all that and step forward into the unknown.
You are tired, yes, and you’re wearing with it. The weather is hard on your physical form. But remember that this process can take place above these frequencies of the human body and in fact, actually help you with vitality in 3-D physical form. So don’t drop the ball here. Keep working, keep tuning in, keep writing. Every day, multiple times a day.
Stay in the flow — you’re getting better at this, but you also require an outlet for the messages you’re receiving, so that is where the writing comes in. It allows you to stay open — otherwise you experience blockages. Think of a tree that falls in a river. The river still has the same amount of water, but cannot just flow freely because of the tree. You must continuously clear channels because it is a part of your process and the outlet for the Light coming through.
Me: Ahramein, please help me understand the pain I’m feeling right now in my heart chakra. How much has to do with my relationships with the people in my life?
A significant portion of this pain has to do with the people in your life. Because you are so resistant to the idea of leaving those you love behind, this has been a problem for you through this whole process. Allow yourself to continue expanding beyond these limitations. You will come eventually to the understanding that you are not leaving people behind, but going forward instead. There is a difference. Going forward allows you the space to gain greater understanding of love and energy and it will allow you to access the knowledge of how you can help those you love appropriately. This is the way. You must find balance in love, and for many, many lifetimes, you have been completely unbalanced in this way. You give what is not asked and should not be given — your life force, which needs to be maintained for your own life and well-being. This is why it is important for you to be independent in this lifetime, because until you find this balance, you will not be able to love truly or completely without harming yourself. You are being presented many opportunities to learn this lesson. Be grateful in this and it will help lend energy to the process and keep it moving more frequently. You must allow this to take place. It is your choice to let go and expand beyond your current misunderstanding.
Love is expansive and allows space for individual beings to grow in the ways their souls are calling them to grow.
Me: How do I disconnect this need to bring others along?
By continuing to grow and evolve constantly into higher frequencies of Light. You must allow your heart to leave the cage its been locked in for lifetimes. It needs to be free to expand beyond your current misunderstanding. You’ve been punishing it for betraying you, but it never did. This was your own limited understanding of love, and your heart was simply trying to teach you the expansiveness of truly unconditional love. See your heart leaving this cage. See your heart expanding in light and into light. Spend time on this the week. It is important in the process.
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Exercise: Begin each exercise by grounding and protecting. For more information on how, see this post.
Find a quiet place to sit for a few minutes. Get grounded and go within, asking the Light of your Soul to guide you. Either visualize or feel your path. What does it look or feel like? When you take in what’s around you, what do you notice about your surroundings? Don’t focus on what’s ahead of you, instead spend a few moments simply existing where you are right here and right now. Next, allow yourself to take a few steps along your path. Do you notice anything shifting or changing as you do? Let the visualization unfold for as long as it continues to feel connected, and then open your eyes and, write or record your experiences if you feel called to do so. Ask the Light to help you understand what you’ve seen or felt during this exercise.
The beginning of this exercise is the same as the exercise from the second post, The Path of the Seeker. If you’ve read these posts and done the exercises in order, it might be interesting to look back and see how things have changed on your path during this journey.
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A brief note: This journal and its exercises are simply a means to help you find your own flow. There is no pressure to follow them exactly or read each and every one. It does not need to be read in order either, so if you miss one, don’t feel like you’ve failed or fallen behind. These messages are here to hold space for you as you discover and evolve within your spiritual practice.
This is the first volume of The Journal of the Spiritual Seeker, and I’m presenting it here on The Devic Connection website, serialized over the last 10 weeks of 2020, with weekly roundups via email (you can sign up in the box at the bottom of this page if you’d like to receive these.) If you’ve just arrived here and would like to start from the beginning, here’s the link to the first post.
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We all need help with clarity …
Sometimes, things come up in the healing journey that we can’t quite manage by ourselves. I’m fortunate to have people I can call on to help me gain that clarity. And I’m also in therapy, which helps immensely with processing the psychological and mental health issues. If you find yourself getting stuck on this journey or having something come up that you need some guidance on, please do seek help. An internet search can help you find a qualified mental health practitioner for those psychological issues. And if you’re looking for help from the Light on the spiritual questions, I have some availability for readings. (Read more about that here.)