Freeing Ourselves from Blockages
I’ve long struggled with communication. From the outside, this doesn’t always present itself. I’m quite good at talking with people, and seem to be an easy conversationalist. But within, I’m a ball of knots. I spend the whole time during a conversation worried that I’ll say the wrong thing, and several minutes, hours, days or years after, depending on the circumstance, playing back and evaluating whether or not I said the right thing.
This has gotten better the more aware I become and the more time I spend tuned in and in the flow. But I still have my moments, and I recently experienced how this anxiety prevents me from being completely open on all levels, interpersonally and etherically.
As I have been preparing to launch this website, a lot of these blockages have presented themselves to be cleared, producing a lot of anxiety and fear of saying or doing the wrong thing. I feel there are a lot of you out there who might benefit from the advice I received when I asked for guidance. Here’s what The Fairy said:
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You just need to move. Dismantle the structure you have in place that is preventing this movement and step into the flow. You are the only one who can break this pattern, you are the only one who can choose to move forward in light. You are the only one who can — gets to — control your destiny. And what you need to understand is that you DO control your destiny. You are in charge, in the grand sense of your soul having chosen a path, made contracts, and allowed the flow to carry you through this life, accumulating the lessons necessary to position you perfectly for the work you have chosen to do. So, do it. The more you don’t do it, the worse you will feel, the more anxiety you will experience. It is culminating on every front right now, pushing you to recognize higher purposes to things.
If you allow the flow to happen, these experiences of yours can really help people, but you have to accept and embrace the whole picture of who you are and what it is you are meant to do, not just part of it. In trying to limit and choose what you are, you are hurting the flow. So stop it. Move on. The time is now.
That’s all we can say until you make the choice. You are blocking everything, including our communication right now, so you’re finding it more difficult than usual to experience these conversations. Do the work. Open to the flow. Let go and you will feel the return of your balance and center.
You will find that as you do the work, new channels will open up and your communication and creativity will be freed up as well.
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For me, this has a lot to do with karma, long-held patterns and deep misunderstandings about who I am on a soul level. Much of this boils down to self love.
I am a work in progress, and if you’re here, I suspect you understand that you are, as well! I look forward to sharing in this journey, and hearing about any of your experiences with these words, or how the energy is moving through your life. You can comment here, or find me on Instagram or Twitter and share your thoughts there.
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I always do best when I have homework to help me fully integrate the lessons I’m learning. If you do too, here are some questions that you can use to go deeper in your understanding:
Get centered and ask within:
What interactions have I had recently that have left me feeling uncertain about myself or questioning things that I said or did?
Who was I talking to at the time, and what were we talking about?
Now look over the instances that sprang to mind and ask yourself, is there a pattern here?
What can this pattern show me about my own blockages and how they are manifesting in my interpersonal interactions with others?
If I were to release these blockages, how would I feel?
If you feel ready, work to release the energies that have come up:
Close your eyes and begin by feeling gratitude for the people you interacted with who helped you become aware of these energies, and for the energies themselves for what they have helped you learn.
And then acknowledge that they no longer serve your best and highest good going forward and let them go. Ask the Light — your connection to Source, however that connection presents itself for you — to assist and guide you in releasing and transmuting these energies. Ask for an image that will help you visualize the transmutation process. (For me, it’s often something like unwinding a hose, or watching water in a teapot boil away.) Keep the visualization going until you feel the process is complete for this session.
Keep in mind that many of these energies are deeply rooted and may take many sessions to completely transmute, so be patient with the process and be kind to yourself. Return to this exercise as many times as you need, as often as feels right for you.
And finally, notice how things change for you in the days and weeks that follow!
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If these messages resonate, but you’re feeling stuck or just need a little bit more personalized guidance, I offer private readings. Contact me for more details.